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Thursday, August 16th, 2001
8:32 pm
I suppose an update would be what some people would like to see... So here you have it.

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Thursday, July 19th, 2001
2:12 am

I'm off to New York for 5 days, for what will most definitely be the highlight of my summer. Hope you all have fun while I'm gone and don't let the place fall to pieces.

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Monday, July 16th, 2001
1:03 am
my frosted miniwheats are so tasteless and unsatifying... what is wrong with the world?

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Friday, July 13th, 2001
2:14 pm
Just an update to say that the Big Dada sampler, Sound 01, is GREAT.

The stuff by new flesh is amazing, the cLOUDDEAD track is mind blowing, and listening to ttc (not the public transit system, the french rap group) sing legumon is just amazing.

Of course Tricky - Blowback is still my current favourite. That album is perfection.

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2:10 am - Cheez it, it's the fuzz!!
Might not be able to update for a bit... I commited what some would consider a "major" crime, but of course people are "stupid".

So now I spend night hiding under my bed with a baseball bat because I'm afraid the cops might come.


/me runs away

current mood: I FEEL LIKE A FUGITIVE

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Tuesday, July 10th, 2001
12:48 am
Generally speaking, I don't like people my age. I really don't. The shallow girls, the hyper aggresive guys, and the stupid posturing on both sides of the sexes, I just can't stand it.

I went to this party yesterday. This girl from work invited me, and I went in the hopes of seeing the Vaguely Asian girl, because they go to school together.

I went with my friend Ian and his girl Janet. Walking up the steps to this guys house we were greeted by a VERY large white guy wearing a Fubu shirt and some Eminem blasting out the window. I said "Hey, how's it going" to the big guy, and he just grunted and pointed us through. Yeah...

So we step inside, and look around. Here we are in the living room, and there are about 6 wiggas sitting round the stereo, not really doing anything... alright...

Walk along into the kitchen, and we're greeted by a whole bunch of large guys decked out in GAP clothing and holding mixed drinks. Hockey players, all of them, I later find out. Interesting...

Check out the basement. A bunch of nerdish guys playing Nintendo, not unlike myself. Finally we head out back to the patio, where I find this guy I know from school, biggest pot head I know. He's there rolling up. So we sit down and talk a bit.

Ian at this point realizes he desperately needs to piss. But he finds the washroom downstairs is being hotboxed, and someone is having sex in the one upstairs... uhhhh-huuhh...

Around the same time I see someone I recognize from elementary school walking round the house... and I get a bit freaked out. The police came into the class to take this guy away in Grade 8 because he broke another kids arm. I haven't seen him in a while, but I have heard the stories of the shit he's been into recently. I also realize at this point quite a few people wearing blue bandanas... uhh... hmm...

Top all this off with the fact that they ran out of alcohol about 10 minutes before we got there, and people are getting ansy.

Janet is obviously uncomfortable, as there is a notable difference in the ratio of guys to girls at this party and she's being eyed up like a piece of meat. So we end up heading out, no more than 30 minutes after we get in. On the way out I see even more people that I know trail a bit off the path.

And no Vaguely Asian girl. In fact, the party was COMPLETELY white people save for one black guy and one Asian girl.

Not a completely wasted night though. Ian slept at my place, and we pumped some of our own jams and watched this great movie, Romper Stomper. Russel Crowe as a Neo-Nazi skinhead... WODNERFUL

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Saturday, July 7th, 2001
2:34 am - Absolutely hopeless...
Sometimes I wonder, I wonder why I do this to myself. In the past 3 months I've had plenty of opportunities to go out with plenty of wonderful, beautiful girls. Yet I haven't taken any of them up. And it's not that I'm afraid or anything, but that I can't get this one, single girl out of my head.

The first time I saw her... well, I can't honestly remember... it was probably years ago. But the first time I really took notice of her, the first time I remembered her after the fact, this was 3 months ago. It was at my sisters dance performance. Sitting 3 or 4 seats away from her, she was reading the program and as she spotted one of the pieces of music being used I overheard her say "Herbaliser!! I love the Herbaliser!!"

I fell in love... well, no I didn't really. That would be just plain stalkerish. But I did all of a sudden have an incredible infatuation with this girl. You see, my musical tastes are completely and totally different from those of my friends. I listen to pretty much anything... my library consists of some fairly popular stuff like Mos Def, Gorillaz, Tool, but it mostly consists of stuff my friends have never even heard of, stuff like DJ Shadow, Mr Lif, Digable Planets, Ugly Duckling, Pocket Dwellers, Breakestra, Aphex Twin, Squarepusher, Thelonius Monk, Mogwai, DJ Krush, ANYTHING NINJATUNE... and of course Herbaliser. And if I try to introduce them to it they just knock it and go back to listening to shit like Ludacris, Nelly, and other forms of dog excrement.

Shit, getting off track... So, when I hear this girl say "I love Herbaliser" I was blown away. I have never known anyone my age that knew Herbaliser before I introduced them to it, let alone someone who LIKED it. And to top it all off when I turned to see who said it I saw one of the most beautiful girls I'd ever been lucky enough to grace my eyes upon... I never got a chance to talk to her though, I was with my family at the time and when the show was over it was just a mess of people in the tiny hallway. So I left without knowing anything more about her... didn't even find out her name... I simply referred to her as the Vaguely Asian girl.

3 weeks later, at another of my sisters performances I saw her again. I was sitting in the back row and I watched her as she walked in with a friend. And as she was walking to her seat she actually looked up, smiling, and looked directly at me. During intermission we caught each others glances from across the room multiple times.

When the show was over, I left my family to go find my sister, and as I was walking along the hall I saw the girl right up ahead of me, and she saw me. I walked towards her, and she was smiling at me, and I had the absolute perfect chance. But something clicked inside me, and I never said anything to her... I just gave the rose to my sister, hugged her, and went back. I fucked it up, majorly.

If the same situation were to happen today, I would absolutely have taken that chance. The girl has been constantly on my mind... through my sister and others I now know her name, her school, and a bunch of other stuff, but I have no way of actually meeting her... yet...

As it turns out someone I work with goes to school with her, they're both dance majors, and they're actually friends. So at this point I'm just trying to orchestrate things so that I get another chance...

Christ on a cross, this has become one big, mangled entry... completely devoid of structure. Here is the summary:


And if I ever do get to meet this girl, I'm deleting this post. If she ever found it she'd probably think I'm a stalker or something :P

current mood: frustrated

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Thursday, July 5th, 2001
1:34 am
Ohh, and I forget to add:

I have inspiration for a new short film. I hope to get all the groundwork for it done this summer, but I won't have access to any kind of video/editing equipment until I get back to school. Maybe I'll call my teacher and he might be able to help me out with something.

current mood: creative

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12:44 am
Ahh, alright, here we are, Wednesday. I feel much better today, yes I do. I went out to penguin records (a store I found through another live journal users webpage!! Thank you Noel for the tip off!!)

So I came home with a few new CD's. I got Thelonius Monk, a Dizzy Gelespie two CD set, a DJ Food/DJ Krush/ColdCut double cd set (Cold Krush Cuts), and Breakestra - the Live Mix Part 2.

So then, 80 dollars later...

I think I'm spending WAY too much on CD's... but it's just all too great, I love music too much. For me there's been only one constant in life, music. My interest in things comes and goes, but music is always there.

On the way back I hit my place of work, Chapters... bad choice. I went upstairs, checked out my hours, and I was about to go with my friend on break when my manager pulls me to the side and tells me how the new General Manager was complaining about me for some bullshit reason. My manager is an alright guy, but now that he's taking orders from this new GM he's a fucking tight ass. He knows he was the biggest slacker at the store, and now he's trying to look like he's actually competent. Basically I've been told I'm not allowed to even talk to my friends on the floor at all. If either of us are working, we're not allowed to talk. I walked out of chapters and just started yelling I was so pissed.

Anyways, the point of it all is I don't plan on being there by the end of the month. I'm getting out. The place is going to fucking hell and I'm not riding this sinking ship. So I'm going over my resume right now, and guess where I'm going to drop it... Penguin Records!! I'd absolutely LOVE to work at penguin, they carry all the great shit that I like!! Whether it's Thelonius Monk, Mogwai, anything Ninjatune related, they've got it!! Plus I might be able to actually AFFORD to buy all the albums with a discount!!

On top of all this, the girl that hadn't contacted me just replied with an e-mail, said she had stayed at the cottage an extra day with her friends. I can't blame her, I think it's best she didn't come to the party, it would have just been weird. Nonetheless though, I was happy to hear from her...

She's could be the link I've needed!! Heeheehee, maybe I'll explain that one next time...

Ohh, and maybe I'll grab a picture for my profile too!

current mood: optimistic

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Wednesday, July 4th, 2001
2:02 pm
Don't you hate being left hanging? Don't you hate it when you just don't know what's going on?

I invited this girl to a party I had last Monday, a girl from work. And I wasn't even asking her because I liked her or something, just as a friend. I gave her my phone number and I got her e-mail, but then our manager got mad at us so I couldn't get anything else. She was supposed to come home from her cottage on Monday afternoon and give me a ring, but she never did. So I'm left trying to decide if she stood me up or if she's still at her cottage or something... By all means I shouldn't worry about it, because she seemed really excited about it when I told her, but I'm a worrier, I have the worst case scenario in my head already. Grah, I don't even like this girl in any way more than a friend, I don't know why it's bugging me so much.

On a lighter note, I'm going to get some albums today if this rain lets up. Hopefully I'll be able to find the Big Dada compilation, Sound '01, at this place Penguin Records.

current mood: confused

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Tuesday, July 3rd, 2001
9:16 pm
hohoho, now I too can be an E/N whore!!
I've figured out why the client wasn't detecting mp3s properly, now it's a matter of simply figuring out how to make this page NOT look ass nasty.

I must say, livejournal is more than I expected...

current mood: accomplished

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8:58 pm
Just testing the software

current mood: thirsty

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